Back.

So. I'm back from my little bloggie break. And I'm going to be 100% honest: I took a break because I had a little mental breakdown.

Long story short, I've been struggling with depression and anxiety on and off for the past 2 years. Actually I've been struggling with anxiety pretty much since I started college, but only recently has it gotten bad enough to the point of actually causing depression.

When I'm anxious, I barely sleep, I get extremely worried about the littlest things, I stop eating and end up losing a ton of weight, and am generally just incredibly tense 24/7. I end up overthinking practically everything I do, like even what I eat for breakfast, which sounds dumb but all of that overthinking leads to me telling myself that what I'm doing is definitely the wrong thing to be doing. That leads to more stress and anxiety, which leads to me getting completely down and not even wanting to get out of bed because there's no point.

So, as you can probably imagine, spending 6 months applying for jobs and having nothing to show for it was a little rough. I wasn't meeting any of the somewhat ridiculous expectations that I set for myself, I wasn't achieving anything I had set out to do, and it was hard. I felt like a failure, when really I wasn't failing at all.

Anyway. My doctor put me on some medication, and I've just been taking it a little easier, and I'm feeling a bit more like myself.

I've gotten a pretty amazing amount of support and love from friends and family and readers (who are friends too, duh) and I am so thankful and blessed that I have all of y'all in my life. Words cannot even express my gratitude. I'm happy to be back to posting in this little blog!

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Grace Kelly image from here